The Beginning of the End (Part Deux)

As some of you may be expecting I am picking this blog up at Pt. 2 of where I left off which was "thus the speed of perception and lust has taken over the human psyche..."

After getting positive feedback from people that have read the blog I bumped into one of my most objective friends. He read my blog and went on to point out how subjective people are. He doesn't believe that perception and/or lust can take over the human psyche. He believes that at the end of the day, essentially, our story was written and was predestined to happen through cause and effect. It isn't that he believes in "fate" or "destiny" per se but more so in Karma, to him, both good and bad happen not because a person was foolish or because they deserved it..! His thought is that through a sequence of events -- consequence, circumstance, to love and to lose, etc, etc happen because it was supposed to.

Example: He went on to use as an example something he heard that recently happened to Sharon Stone. Apparently, her ads are being pulled for some endorsements she has over comments she made about China. Something to the effect of her saying that they have lost thousands in the earthquake due to what they have been doing to the Tibetan Monks. Thus her calling it Karma... Feeling the "Karma" of it herself by opening her mouth in the first place and criticizing them she has lost something of her own. This is when I asked him, "But doesn't/didn't she have a choice? Aren't we masters of our own fate?" He disagreed and said, "Eventhough we as humans may believe that we can come to a cross road and choose left or right that the point is it was destined to reach that particular cross road through actions and reactions...and it was destined for us to choose right or left."...Intriguing right!?

My next question for him was..."Well, if you believe in cause and effect and effect comes from the cause then what causes a cause?" We agreed that whether it is a cause of a cause or an effect of a cause the point is that it is ALL a chain reaction. He then went on further to use my own life experience against me citing that no matter what happened and how it went down in my personal life when it comes to my son and his mother that this was the way it was supposed to be.

This morning I thought about that deeply as I spoke to a good friend on my way to work. She and I discussed my old high school days, as she was interested to hear about all the fun I claimed to have had, as of course I did! As I flipped through my mental history pages, I cited my senior year and how I met my son's mother in Consumer Math Class. My good friend's next question was "Why did you have to take Consumer Math your senior year?" and I told her because I failed 10th grade math because we used to play checkers and have rubber band fights instead of caring about geometry. Well low and behold it hit me! I didn't necessarily choose to bullshit Geometry...it was written. I was suppose to fail it, I was suppose to take Consumer Math 2 years later and God damn it I was suppose to meet the mother of my child!

For years I've always told the story of how we met and attributed it to me almost making it out of High School a single and free man only to be duped into a relationship as we approached Prom and Graduation. But was I really "duped?" I mean, she literally sat right behind me and through cheating off of her class work she ended up liking me. To think I never knew this girl from a can of paint, we went to the same school for 4 YEARS and I had no idea who she was...and that fast it went from 0-60 for us, ultimately leading to a child as we progressed through our new found adulthood. Although I look back at it and may wish a few things may have happened differently, the point is, it wasn't anything I could do as our being together is an indirect yet direct effect of me failing 10th grade geometry. Then you say, well you could have just passed geometry and maybe the two of you could have gone the full 4 years without hooking up...my question is "could I have passed?" Wasn't I supposed to fail, wasn't I supposed to have this push over for a teacher just so that I could flip through the pages of my own personal life story?

The moral of this story is -- life is like a Video Camera that is constantly recording with NO second takes available. It is candid, raw, uncut and no matter what stresses us out, no matter how sad, mad, and/or angry we may get -- that a situation has happened, no matter how stupid you may feel in hindsight (which is 20/20), all the could of's, should of's and would of's JUST IS! We need to stop killing ourselves over it and just accept it or as my older cousin has taught me..."such is life!"

So such is life and with life as such we can be cautious, careful, and canny but it really means nothing. With the camera's rolling and all of us starring in our own TV shows all I can say at this point is "lights, camera, ACTION!"

Make sure y'all check out the BLOG on Monday, as I progress I look to cover topics such as religion, gender differences, race, politics, ignorance as well as an assortment of others...I think I could get use to this whole blogging thing.

Til then People!

Beginning of the End

Sometimes, if not all the time, it is hard to be true to one's self, much less to be true to someone you are interested in and vice versa. A lot of times...time in itself travels at the speed of light -- with love traveling right along side it. Imagine the speed of light as perception and traveling alongside of it instead of lust is love....

In this world/society of marriages and couples holding hands we as human beings (fancy word for walking, talking animal) put more pressure on ourselves mentally than any other creature on the planet. The old adage is "there is someone out there for everyone" but is that really true? Or is the truth that in our blurred perception of reality that we misconstrue lust for love?

Imagine meeting that someone and them sweeping you off your feet. As humans we love perception right? As a regular human being attention does wonders for self-esteem. And of course who doesn't want to be noticed and loved?

You think you and this person hit it off b/c you've hugged, kissed, gone places and alas...had intercourse! Now its time for stage two, now the pressure is: are we boyfriend and girlfriend, are we exclusive, etc, etc. In some cases, guys feel the female is pushing for some type of stability and because the sex is good the guy will settle for the "title" and vice versa.

Skip ahead, now you have been dating for 6 months and it feels like 6 years! You both claim to love one another, you speak about future plans, goals, aspirations, family etc. Things are good and your high on life...fast forward to 1 year and it feels like ten! Fast forward to 2 years and it feels as if your already married. Hell, you've probably moved in together and may have even done the most complicated thing you could do to further complicate the relationship...you go and get pregnant!

You think to yourself, "I love this person -- a kid is what we want right...?" hell you think it even more as you reach your climax in bed as you're unprotected and bust them nutz ("I love you baby...yesss bust in me!") What you haven't thought about or really experienced is how bills will be split and if -- as a unit you will actually be there as parents for the child. Hell, you don't even know if the two of you will last as a couple much less as a family...thus the speed of perception and lust has taken over the human psyche...

This, folks is what I like to so humbly call "THE BEGINNING OF THE END!" (PT.2 TOMORROW)